30
Oct
2014
Provision
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He always provides, but somehow, I still find myself consumed with worry.
He is always faithful, so why do I doubt?
I think at the root of my worry and doubt I am afraid that the way in which He will provide for me will not provide for all of my wants. Does that make sense? I struggle with knowing that God is a good father who delights and takes joy in giving me good things, but also knowing that we are not promised a life that is comfortable in the way my flesh desires. I know that every day, in Christ, I have everything I need to glorify my Savior. My desire is that I will grow and recognize everything that surrounds me is a gift - to be used to glorify and bring honor to Christ.
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All these thoughts have been ruminating in my mind and heart lately. October has been a challenging month for our family. Among other lessons that God has been teaching us, we realized that we didn't have room in our budget for language classes and childcare. We were feeling so discouraged and praying that God would give us wisdom about moving forward. // We believe that language learning is crucial to our ministry here, with our specific people group. Our desire is to share the Gospel with them in their heart language. However, a precursor to sharing about Jesus is simply being able to communicate with them, as many of the families that we are building relationships with speak very little (or no) English. // So, we were feeling disheartened and beginning to doubt. Before we had even shared our need with anyone, our faith family asked if they could surround and support us by taking up a donation for the costs associated with our language learning. We sat humbled by the outpouring of love and support that our church showed towards us, but also humbled by the oh-so-obvious reminder that God is providing for us. The families in our church gave generously to provide for months of language classes - but also provided us a lesson in trusting our Lord.
He is always faithful, so why do I doubt?
I think at the root of my worry and doubt I am afraid that the way in which He will provide for me will not provide for all of my wants. Does that make sense? I struggle with knowing that God is a good father who delights and takes joy in giving me good things, but also knowing that we are not promised a life that is comfortable in the way my flesh desires. I know that every day, in Christ, I have everything I need to glorify my Savior. My desire is that I will grow and recognize everything that surrounds me is a gift - to be used to glorify and bring honor to Christ.
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All these thoughts have been ruminating in my mind and heart lately. October has been a challenging month for our family. Among other lessons that God has been teaching us, we realized that we didn't have room in our budget for language classes and childcare. We were feeling so discouraged and praying that God would give us wisdom about moving forward. // We believe that language learning is crucial to our ministry here, with our specific people group. Our desire is to share the Gospel with them in their heart language. However, a precursor to sharing about Jesus is simply being able to communicate with them, as many of the families that we are building relationships with speak very little (or no) English. // So, we were feeling disheartened and beginning to doubt. Before we had even shared our need with anyone, our faith family asked if they could surround and support us by taking up a donation for the costs associated with our language learning. We sat humbled by the outpouring of love and support that our church showed towards us, but also humbled by the oh-so-obvious reminder that God is providing for us. The families in our church gave generously to provide for months of language classes - but also provided us a lesson in trusting our Lord.
